tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26020403427062954252024-03-13T17:43:23.240-07:00Losing to gain!Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-51697553795784637652015-07-19T05:45:00.001-07:002015-07-19T05:45:02.092-07:00Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-77138171635955587032014-10-20T14:33:00.003-07:002014-10-20T14:38:07.325-07:00I've moved! If you don't know already, I've moved my blog over to <a href="http://www.losingtogain.com/">www. Losingtogain.com</a> so be sure to visit me there! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-1923471231215103172014-05-19T14:34:00.000-07:002014-05-19T14:34:10.298-07:00Mia!I have been MIA for a very loooonnngggg time! I was having some health issues, and it turns out that I have Lupus, Hasihmoto's along with my PCOS. It's fun times to be me! But, I've started gaining some weight back, and that is completely not what I want to do. So, I'm back in the saddle, and doing Weight Watcher's to help me get back in the groove! I hope that you all have been good! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-37295622095255549452014-03-02T05:41:00.000-08:002014-03-02T05:41:27.700-08:00Weekly Weigh InWell, this week I remained the same on the scale. Really, though I deserved a gained. Last weekend, I found some swollen lumps in my neck. I called and made a doctors appt, fully expecting to go in and be told that it's my thyroid. I'm a woman in my 30's and I have PCOS. I fully expected it to be my thyroid and I had accepted that fate. So, when I went in to the doctor and she told me that she didn't think it was my thyroid, but she thought it was a swollen lymph node caused from an infection, I was surprised. But, I thought hey an infection is better than a thyroid problem. So, the doctor drew some blood, just to verify the infection, and sent me for an ultrasound just to make sure she was correct. On Wednesday, I got my results back. There was no infection, and it wasn't a lymph node. They said the ultrasound tech said she couldn't clearly see what it was, but that there were "two suspicious nodules" in my neck. So, now I have no clue what the answer is. I'm waiting to have a CT scan, so that hopefully they can see what it is more clearly. <br />
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With all this "unknown" and worry about my health, I have for sure been eating my emotions. I know that I can't control the outcome no matter what, but it's just the waiting that is driving me crazy. I'm stressing it, I'm very impatient, and I just want to know so that I can fix it and move on. Finally on Friday, I decided that I could either let this health issue consume me and take me under, or I could fight for my health. I decided to fight. I quit eating my emotions, and decided that it's time to make a big change in my eating habits. It's time for me to focus on being healthy. I am working on cutting out all the processed foods that I can reasonably can. Not just for myself but for my entire family. We have a diet that is heavily processed, and now it's time to get rid of that. So, we are slowly making a change to that. Right now, though I'm really struggling with it. I think maybe my body is addicted to all the chemicals, because I'm going through some withdrawal symptoms! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-69659184150700624142014-02-17T06:02:00.001-08:002014-02-17T06:02:23.100-08:00Motivaton for Monday! <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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How true is this? I can't even tell you how many times I've said this! But, I would never ever think about smashing my phone! <br /><br />Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-6444940660957304652014-02-17T05:51:00.002-08:002014-02-17T05:51:47.862-08:00Weekly Weigh InThis week I gained four lbs. Some of you might be wondering why I am here posting about a four pound gain on a weight loss blog, but it's because I promised to share the good, the bad, and the ugly. This definitely qualifies as the ugly! Time of month has arrived and that is part of what is going on with the gain, but I can't pretend to say that I did want I needed to do last week. I didn't work out once, and and I didn't eat like I should have. I was depressed this week, and I didn't want to get off the couch! I think this week, I'm going to take some time and get back outside! It's supposed to be pretty this week, so I think I'm going to go back to the park and walk at least one morning, after my little one goes back to school.<br />
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This week it's time to get back on track! I'm so close to being down 100's that I can taste it! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-83242041661810290012014-02-11T11:08:00.001-08:002014-02-11T11:08:34.638-08:00This week is going to be a challege! We've got an ice storm coming here in the south. So, we will be stuck inside for a coupon days. My husband will be "stuck at work" and so it will just be me and the little one. I worry that I'm going to struggle with eating, because right now I feel like I'm starving, even though I shouldn't be hungry. And, I've felt like that all day. I'm suspecting that it must be stress, making me hungry! I just need to make it through! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-65452354944740956912014-02-09T06:14:00.000-08:002014-02-09T06:14:18.675-08:00Weekly Weigh In! Well, it's that time of week! While I didn't get a chance to post last week, I did get my weigh in done then also! But, here its the results! <br />
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I lost two lbs this week, and two lbs last week! I can't believe that I am down 91 lbs! I wasn't even thinking last week, when I did my weigh in that I was so close to being at 100lbs lost. I was feeling pretty overwhelmed with how far I still have to go. But, a friend of mine pointed out that I was so close to being 100lbs down, and I have to say, that was really helped changed how I think. That's a major accomplishment. I'm pretty happy with myself! I've come so far in the past year! To me, the best thing is, while I've had my struggles and set backs, I haven't allowed myself to just stop all together and regain the weight. I've kept trucking, and working through my set backs, and that really shows to me how much I've changed!<br />
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I hope that you all had a great week! And, I hope your weigh ins go as well as mine! <br />
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Today is weigh in day. This week didn't get as well as I had hoped! I had a great start to the week, and then life took over! And, I was totally unprepared for it! I've been battling an eye infection for the past couple weeks, and I had several doctors appts the last half of the week, which lead to me being in the car the entire day! Which of course leads to lots of fast food! Ugh! I need to find a way to better prepare for days like that! So, I lost less than a pound this week, but I guess it's better than a gain! This week, it's back on track! Next week, I'm gunning for a two lbs lost! Gotta buckle down and get it done! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-54393996548951420842014-01-22T13:36:00.000-08:002014-01-22T13:36:28.025-08:00A gold star for me today! This morning I had the same battle in my head again, I could get up and workout or I could go back to sleep. After several minutes of the battle in my head, getting up won out. I got up, got dressed grabbed my ear phones and water and hit the elliptical. Only, to realize how sore my legs were. I lasted all of two minutes on the elliptical before I decided that I was too sore, so I would give myself a pass for the day. I got my little one up and ready for school. After, dropping her off I realized that my emotions were all over the place today. I knew there was a very good chance that I would end up eating my emotions, so I told myself I had to make a choice, I could either eat my emotions and feel guilty about that or I could go home and try my workout again and see if I could workout and distract myself from the raging emotions. Well, I made a great decision and told myself I was going to workout. I came home and got it done! I felt so great after! My emotions weren't so crazy and I was ready to tackle my day! I deserve a gold star for my great choices today! Go me!Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-79321397834837625572014-01-21T15:23:00.000-08:002014-01-21T15:23:04.056-08:00It's been a good day so far! Today has been a very good day. I did struggle with the thought of going back to sleep this morning instead of working out, but working out won. I'm glad I got up and was able to get my workout in. I told myself this morning, that I can't allow myself to give in to sleeping late since I want to make getting up early to work out a habit! <br />
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Food wise, today has been an easy day to turn down things I knew I didn't need. And, to stop eating when I was full, even though there was food still left on my plate! I will call that a win for today!<br />
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I hope you day has been good! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-11132451643907960452014-01-20T11:18:00.001-08:002014-01-20T11:18:27.754-08:00Today is the day! Today is the day that I decided to start the day off right! I woke up early, got my time on the elliptical in before anyone else was up and moving. It feel did feel good to get it finished and out of the way so that I can enjoy the rest of my day. My goal is to keep it up the rest of the week! It was a struggle to get out bed, I really had a battle in my head, one part of me said that if I didn't get myself up and moving then nothing would never change. But, another part of me said that I could just roll over and go back to sleep for 45 mins. Getting up won, and I'm so glad it did! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-44110440839449927232014-01-19T05:52:00.000-08:002014-01-19T06:10:22.313-08:00Feeling like a failure! This week, I started off this week with a plan I was going to track my calories, get on my elliptical and burn some calories. And, I was going to end this week with a loss. Can you guess what really happened? My elliptical sat mostly unused, I gave up on tracking my calories, and I gained a pound. Suddenly, to me this pound feels like the end all. It feels like I should just quit trying because I'm never going to get it right, or be able to be smaller. This week, I really wanted that loss, and it feels like the more I wanted it, the more my mind or body or whatever the heck is sabotaging me wanted me to not have it. I would eat the right amounts at meals, but then I would find myself snacking nonstop. I wouldn't even realize I was doing it at first. And, then when I finally did realize that I was doing it, I would immediately feel guilty, and worthless and be so angry with myself. And, then I would promise myself I wouldn't do it again, but two hours later, there I was eating again! And, I was start the entire cycle all over again! I don't get it. I don't understand what is so wrong with me. Why can't I just eat like a normal person! Why does food seem to have this power over me that makes me not even realize what I am doing? How can an object control my life like this? Food doesn't have a mind of it's own, it can't just jump into my mouth all by itself. I have to put it there, but I do so sometime without even knowing I'm doing it. It's like my brain checks out, and something else takes over. I really don't get it, I don't understand why this is happening to me, and why I can't just be like a normal person. I feel so disgusting, and worthless. Maybe I should just give up, and quit trying. It's pretty clear that I will never be able to have what I want. <br />
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At some point this month though, I've lost 6lbs. When I went to the doctor last, on Dec 26th, I weighed 288lbs. Today, I weigh 282 lbs. So, in the past month, those lbs have been lost somewhere, but yet I don't feel like I've lost them.. I haven't celebrated their loss. I feel only like I've gained. But, they had to have fell off somewhere. Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-44416425737612121722013-12-29T15:48:00.001-08:002013-12-29T15:48:43.819-08:00It's that time of year for resolutions! Christmas is over and it's time to prepare for a new year. Do you make resolutions? I used to never make resolutions because I always knew that I would never follow through with them. Last year, I did make a resolution, and since I ended up with a 76lb loss for the year (yep I gained a few lbs with the holidays) I'm going to call it a success. <br />
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Now, it's time for me to set my resolution for 2014. I don't want to put a number on my weight loss, because I don't have a number really set in my mind where I want to stop. I'm thinking I just want to be under 200lbs. I would be happy with that. I do know that my plan is going to be a mix of calorie counting and low gi. I ordered my bike/elliptical in one. I will have to post a review for you once I've used it some. Right now, I'm impatiently awaiting it to arrive. Hopefully, it will be here in the next two weeks. My goal is to change my schedule and use my elliptical before I get my daughter up and off to school. I hope to make it a habit, so that it's something that I just automatically do when I wake up. <br />
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So, what are you resolutions? How are you planning on achieving them? Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-70590685074089314232013-12-24T09:44:00.000-08:002013-12-24T09:44:19.067-08:00Merry Christmas ya'll! Merry Christmas! I hope everyone has a great Christmas! I will be back after the holiday with new recipes to post and try, and back to weekly weigh ins. I can't wait to get started again! I hope you all enjoy your family time! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-68038699367009147852013-12-20T19:22:00.000-08:002013-12-20T19:22:32.142-08:00Phew! Tis the season! Well, I'm in full swing bah humbug mode. Not my typically attitude during the holidays. But, here I am this year. I honestly think though, it's my own doing. My only focus has been "are they over yet, so I can get back to losing weight?" It's like in my mind I have told myself that I couldn't make it through the holidays on my diet, so instead I would make myself miserable by wanting to hurry it along. I really set myself up for a fail. I am so ready to get back on track!<br />
<br />Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-21611486865882477592013-12-07T08:32:00.000-08:002013-12-07T08:32:47.645-08:00Struggles and set backs! The holidays are here and I never really formed a plan for dealing with them. I guess in my mind I could just float right through them. Well, that plan isn't working out so well. I'm really struggling. I'm way off my low gi eating plan. And, it really stinks. I know I'm gaining weight. I've been in a very out of control binge. The cravings are back and I can't seem to stop myself from giving in to them. <br />
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I've been asking myself where do I wrong the most with the cravings. And, the answer has to be the grocery store. I couldn't eat it if I didn't buy it. I'm not really sure what makes me buy it. I think just because it's sitting there staring me in the face, so it finds it's way into my cart. That's not good! I think I need to start making a list of the things I need, and then sticking to only what is on that list! Nothing added, nothing extra! <br />
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I also struggle with finding ideas for low GI meals that are quick and easy and don't require much effort! Once, I make it through these holidays I'm going to focus on finding new recipes for me, that are quick or that can be reheated well. That's going to be important to helping me stay focused and on track. Is having the food handy, and ready. Otherwise, there is always an excuse to not cook it. <br />
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Mentally and emotionally, I'm really in a bad place. I'm struggling with exhaustion from burning the candle at both ends, and from depression I think. I'm thinking my depression is hormone related as I think, TOM is nearing any day now. <br />
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Usually, I am very excited about the holidays. And, this year all I can think is hurry up and be over already! That is very unlike me. Normally, I love the feeling of Christmas. <br />
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I did have a victory with fitness this week though. One day this week I had to skip my walking because I just got caught up in the Christmas shopping and ran out of time. I felt terrible the entire day. I was tired, and grouchy, and felt like a huge lump of laziness. I can't really describe how bad it made me feel. The next day I made sure that I was back to my walk because I didn't want to feel like that again. It felt so bad to be back to walk. I was tired beyond belief after my walk, but I felt great! I'm looking forward to getting my Christmas present to myself (an elliptical)! It's going to allow me to change my schedule around some and hopefully take some pressure off. I think I will still get outside and walk when I have some time to do that. Because, I really do enjoy being outside. Even when it's super cold and I'm freezing my butt off out there. But, it will be nice to be able to get my workout out of the way in the early mornings before I have to start my day with my little one and school and etc. It will help to free up some of my time. But, it will also mean that I will have to stick to a much stricter bedtime! Bedtime is important for me, I have always loved to sleep!<br />
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I hope that all of you reading this hasn't lost your motivation or fallen off track like I have! I know that you can keep on track and keep going! If you have fallen off track, just come and jump back on track with me! When can do it! I know we can! <br />
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<br />Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-29936731933069381032013-11-26T19:22:00.000-08:002013-11-26T19:22:28.445-08:00My doctor thinks I need an attitude adjustment. I go to see my family practioner every month for a weight loss check up. I feel like this keeps me honest with myself about where I am in my weight loss. I also feel like it gives me a chance to discuss with some one with a medical background. And, it also allows me to ensure that I am losing weight safely and in a healthy way. <br />
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My check ups, are pretty easy. I get on the scale, I get a shot of b-12, my doctor runs my hormone panel because of my pcos, and then we discuss my month. We talk about how my pcos symptoms were, how I felt, what I felt like I did right and what I felt like I did wrong. We come up with a plan of action for the next month, and then she always gives me some encouragement. This actaully helps me. It most likely wouldn't help if i didn't have such an awesome doctor. My doctor remembers me, she also has pcos, doesn't treat me like a patient, she treats me like a friend. She comes into the exam room, she sits down and says how have you been. She really listens, and really cares. It also really helps that she has pcos. So, when I tell her about a problem with a symptom she understands. She helps me try to treat and prevent the symptom, not just deal with it. <br />
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So, after explaining all that. This week when she sat down and asked me about my week. I was telling her that I was really struggling with my workouts and feeling deprived, on the low gi. I felt like I was going to have to live this life by never eating things I enjoy again. So, I was telling her all this and she told me that she wanted me to work on my thought process. And, she's right. I do need to work on my thought process. It is going to be a struggle if you tell yourself it's going to be. It is going to really suck, if you tell yourself that it's going to suck. She told me to change my thinking to thinking about how much better I am going to feel. <br />
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So, that is my plan for the next month. To focus on changing my thinking. To start thinking that I enjoy the workouts, even when I have to use a DVD to work out. And, I'm going to work on thinking that I'm not being deprived, that I'm feeding my body what it needs to feel and be healthy! I'm really not sure how to go about it changing my mindset, but she suggested that every time I caught myself saying something negative that I turn it into a positive. So, that's my plan. Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-42304676373505080352013-11-23T15:30:00.001-08:002013-11-23T15:30:58.691-08:00Failing to plan, is planning to fail! The title says it all. I failed to plan today. I failed to plan my meals, my day, and well that found with me a big fat failure for the day. I ended up some high GI foods. And, now I find myself craving them and it's so much easier to just say yes to eating them again. I knew I should have planned better! I didn't workout today as well, only because my knee is swollen and throbbing. Thank you cold front for making my knee ache. <br />
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I'm dreaming of buying myself an elliptical for Christmas. Because, my mom has arthritis and hers started in her knee when she was about my age. A couple years ago I started having pain in my knee and swelling. It mostly happens when it's cold or when I big storm is coming through. Sometimes, it it will swell and ache if I injury it. In the summer it doesn't give me much trouble, but in the winter I better look out! Ellipticals are a lot easier on the joints, so that I is why I am dreaming of one! <br />
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Tomorrow, it's back to low GI, no matter what. And I will find myself tested tomorrow I am sure. Because, we are going out to eat with family to celebrate two birthday's I'm suspecting we will find ourselves at a steakhouse. I'm good with that. I can turn down the bread with no problem and while a steak isn't low fat it does have a low gi. So, I just make sure that I order a steak the correct size. A steak and a salad sounds like just the thing. <br />
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I have managed to make it 7 days without a soda. They don't appeal to much anymore, so I'm very thankful for that. Tomorrow is a new day, and tomorrow I am committed to not planning to fail or failing to plan! Tomorrow is weigh in day, so lets hope the scale brings me some good news! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-76580770188834493712013-11-22T13:55:00.001-08:002013-11-22T13:55:10.647-08:00Sometimes we are our own worst enemy! This morning I woke up got dressed in my workout clothes, I even put my workout socks and shoes on. I knew my sister was coming over, and I had every intention of taking advantage and hitting the pavement at the park for my walk. But, as I was waiting for my sister I found myself trying to talk myself out of going for my walk. I was going through every excuse in the book. The question of the day is why? Why would I try to talk myself out of going? I wasn't hurt or in pain, I wasn't sick, I didn't have to take Zoe with me, I did have a busy schedule for the day, but I have one every day! I was actually looking forward to going, but yet here I was trying to talk myself out of going. It was almost like I wanted myself to fail. It really made no sense. Luckily, I was able to see that I was trying to talk myself out of going, and tossed that idea right on out of my head. I grabbed my car keys and out the door I went.<br />
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When I got to the park, and I started my walk I decided to try to push myself past what I thought I was capable of. I had a little bit of a mental tug of war with it, then and finally decided to just try and see what happens. So, I told myself that I was going to run up the big hill, don't worry your eyes didn't just deceive you I did in fact say run. Okay, well more like slowly slowly slowly jog. So,when I got to the bottom of the
hill and ready to start climbing up, I sprinted up the hill. When I
made it to the top of hill I was winded and huffing and puffing, but the
point is I made it! I didn't faint, have a heart attack and keel over,
I made it to the top! I was pretty proud of myself. So, proud of
myself that I decided to wait a minute and then sprint again! So, after it was all said and down I completed at least 10 sprints. I know that doesn't sound like a lot to anyone who runs all the time, but for a run that weighs almost 300lbs and feels like she is way to fat to run, it's a huge accomplishment. I made each one a little longer than the first one. It was great! Now, are you ready for the best part? I hope your sitting down! I really liked the sprinting! I think I liked it so much because I've always told myself "your too fat" to even attempt to run or "you can don't that,". But, I was able to do it. Who cares that my boobs were bouncing all over the place, or that fat and flab were flapping in the wind! It certainly didn't matter to me! What mattered to me was that I was able to do something that I always felt I couldn't do or that I was to fat to do! I had a smile on my face the entire time. When I finished my second lap (3rd mile). I wanted to put my arms up in a Popeye type pose, and just bask in how strong and empowered I felt, arm fat flapping in the wind or not, I didn't care. What mattered to me was that I was so happy to accomplish something, that I told myself I couldn't do! And, I did it, I wasn't hurt or dead, and really I didn't even feel like I was dying. Sure, I did have to dig deep a couple times to force myself to not stop before the goal I set out for myself, but that means that I was growing. Having to dig deep and push through something gives you the courage to do it again the next time! It helps to build your faith in yourself!<br />
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So, my lesson for the day is that we limit ourselves. We tell ourselves that we can't do something or that we aren't good enough, strong enough, pretty enough. But, yet when we open our minds and have a little faith in ourselves we find a strength we never knew we had! I'm so glad that I found it in me to try! I accomplished a lot more today than just a few sprints! <br />
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For those of you wondering how I feel now. I'm sore and more exhausted than ever! But, I'm thankful for that! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-58585725766638922682013-11-21T11:29:00.001-08:002013-11-21T11:29:22.631-08:00I'm making strides today! They say that the first step to recovering from an addiction is to admit you have a problem. With that being said, my name is Wendy and I have an addiction to weighing myself every morning! I can't tell you if it's a good or bad thing that I find myself getting on the scale more than once a week. I guess it all depends on what the scale says! Sometimes I feel like the scale has this magic power over me and it can either make my day really great or it can make my day really bad! I know it's really silly to let an object determine your day and mood. When I weighed in on Sunday my weight was 292, my starting weight was 365! This morning the scale brought me good news I guess it felt I needed to have a great day! This morning the magic number was 282, that's 10lbs since Sunday! Now, I completely understand that it's water weight! But, I don't care! It still means a loss so I'm going to take it and celebrate it! Deep down I really do fear that when Sunday comes and it's time for the official weigh in that it will have crept back up! Hopefully, the scale gods will still be on my side then!<br />
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The scale isn't the only place I'm making progress though on morning when my daughter has school I go and walk three miles at the park as long as the weather permits. Well, today I had to be back at my daughter's school an hour and a half after I dropped her off for her Thanksgiving party. Plus, I had to come home and pick up the hubby so he could go with me. So, I told myself that it was okay if I didn't get my walk in because I was short on time and I knew there was no way I could get whole three miles in. So, I gave myself an excuse and a pass. But, when I was getting dressed I was on auto pilot. I got my walking clothes, socks and shoes on grabbed some extra water bottles and went out the door. I dropped the little one off and school and headed straight to the park. I think I got about 2 miles in, and then came home to shower and change to get back to her school. It previous times I would have taken the excuse that I didn't have time and then not gotten my walk in. But, the fact that I did it more on auto pilot than actually having to force myself to do it tells me that I'm in a really good place right now! I think I deserve a gold star for the day!<br />
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In other news I'm not having many cravings for sweets like I was having before. I think the low carb thing is actually helping. I'm also not craving the soda like before. I am only tempted when I open the fridge and it's staring me in the face. But, I haven't had to pull out a juice box in two days, three if I make it through today! Part of me though is really worried that I am going to all the sudden find myself back to craving them. But, I know that it's a lot easier to say no to them the first time. But, if I allow myself to have them then it's a whole lot harder to say no and that's how I find myself back in a place that I'm constantly craving them. I just need to remind myself of that! Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-3663646648713520302013-11-19T14:47:00.001-08:002013-11-19T14:47:07.950-08:00Updated Progress Pics. Hey Ya'll,<br />
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I thought I would send some new progress pics. <br />
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This first pic is at my starting weight of 365.<br />
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And the next two are from about 333.<br />
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And the last two are from today (this morning the scale said 287) but we will see what Sunday's weigh in holds. <br />
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Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-42761039342161359102013-11-18T18:22:00.000-08:002013-11-18T18:22:37.426-08:00It's time to bring this place back from the dead! So, it's been a very long time since I've written a post. I know you guys need an update! I've lost 73 pounds since I started this journey. It was 75, but I gained two back this week! Lately, it's been really hard to get back on track after falling off. So, I thought that maybe I needed a new plan! I'm switching from calorie counting, to low glycemic index. I have PCOS, which causes insulin resistance, so my doctor felt that I should really give this plan a try. I can't say that it's a "diet" because a diet to me is something that is temporary. And, this has to be for life! So, no diet words here! <br />
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One of the biggest changes I am making is, no soda at all. NONE, whatsoever! Let me tell you, this is a struggle for me! I keep telling myself it's going to get easier and that one day I'm not even going to miss them. Is it "one day" yet? Because, right now it's really hard. My head hurts, even though I was always drinking a caffeine free one. My head is still killing me. Guess it wasn't as caffeine free as I thought. As a replacement of sorts for the soda, when I really need something with some flavor to it I'm drinking some juice. I bought some Apple and Eve 100% no sugar added juice boxes (yes, apparently I'm five again!). I got the boxes because they are already measured in oz's so I don't have to pull out a measuring cup. I am lazy like that! <br />
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Right now, the low gi plan seems pretty overwhelming to me, and complicated. So, I will have to let ya'll know if it gets any easier. I'm sure it will it's just an adjustment. I can say this, right now I am really struggling with that "night time" eating. I know you know what I'm talking about it. It's 9pm and all I want to do is go raid the cabinets, and eat an entire bag of chips, or an entire package of cookies, or brownies, or cake! Yum cake! But, I refuse at least for now, to give in. It's only day three, so I'm still feeling strong! I hope I am able to keep the will power up! Brownies, and cookies are certainly my weakness. If any of those are in my house, I wake up thinking about what is an acceptable time for me to be eating them! It's absurd! For tonight though, I'm going to pass on the binge session and be strong, or maybe just got to bed so I will sleep through the urges. There have been times in the past when I've went to bed just to sleep through urges to binge on anything I could get my hands on! But, sadly I just wake up thinking it also!Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2602040342706295425.post-12045618610100237842013-08-19T06:52:00.001-07:002013-08-19T06:52:41.323-07:00My plan.I've had some people ask what my "plan" is. I guess they are asking what I'm eating and how I'm losing the weight. Well, to be honest with you. It's not much of a plan. Up until last week, I wasn't tracking my calories and I really wasn't working out that much. Okay, I wasn't working out at all! But, I did try to eat less. I didn't focus on it, I just made an attempt to snack less and more careful with my choices. <br />
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Starting last week I started tracking my calories. I just use myfitnesspal and keep track of them. I do drink a lot of water. And, after my up and down week last week, I am going to start drinking a little more water, because I feel like I'm a little dehydrated. I'm going to try to get in a workout pretty often, but as I'm sure you can guess, I'm just like everyone else. I struggle to find the time to fit it in. I work from home, and I have a four year old that hasn't started school yet. So, it's hard to get the workouts in with her. I do take her to the park with me to ride her bike while I walk. I usually can't get in the entire two miles that I would like to, but my opinion is something is better than nothing. Even if she only lets me get a half mile in, it's better than nothing.<br />
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I'm debating either joining a gym, or just buying myself and elliptical. I'm actually leaning more towards just buying the elliptical because then, when she's sick or on the weekends I can still get my workout in without having to worry about someone to watch her. She can play in her play room while I work out.<br />
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I did cut out sodas, and now I'm moving towards cutting out more processed foods. I am have to do it slowly because if I just cut it all out at once, I still to feel deprived and then I end up craving whatever it is, and it sets me up to fail. But, cutting it out slowly, I really don't miss it all that much. That's what I did with soda and it worked perfectly for me. It's what I am currently doing with sweets. I still allow myself one sweet thing a day. But, trust me that is a lot better than it was before. Usually, it's a few Andes mints or a pudding. <br />
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So, that's my plan.. I'm workinghardatlosing on my fitnesspal if you want to find me and friend me over there.Just Me!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14433481360895480799noreply@blogger.com0