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If you don't know already, I've moved my blog over to www. Losingtogain.com  so be sure to visit me there!

Mia!

I have been MIA for a very loooonnngggg time!   I was having some health issues, and it turns out that I have Lupus, Hasihmoto's along with my PCOS.   It's fun times to be me!   But, I've started gaining some weight back, and that is completely not what I want to do.  So, I'm back in the saddle, and doing Weight Watcher's to help me get back in the groove! I hope that you all have been good!

Weekly Weigh In

Well, this week I remained the same on  the scale.   Really, though I deserved a gained.   Last weekend, I found some swollen lumps in my neck.    I called and made a doctors appt, fully expecting to go in and be told that it's my thyroid.  I'm a woman in my 30's and I have PCOS.  I fully expected it to be my thyroid and I had accepted that fate.    So, when I went in to the doctor and she told me that she didn't think it was my thyroid, but she thought it was a swollen lymph node caused from an infection, I was surprised.   But, I thought hey an infection is better than a thyroid problem.   So, the doctor drew some blood, just to verify the infection, and sent me for an ultrasound just to make sure she was correct.   On Wednesday, I got my results back.  There was no infection, and it wasn't a lymph node.   They said the ultrasound tech said she couldn't clearly see what it was, but that there were "two suspicious nodules" in my neck.   So, now I have no clue what the answer is.  I'm waiting to have a CT scan, so that hopefully they can see what it is more clearly. 

With all this "unknown" and worry about my health, I have for sure been eating my emotions.    I know that I can't control the outcome no matter what, but it's just the waiting that is driving me crazy.  I'm stressing it, I'm very impatient, and I just want to know so that I can fix it and move on.  Finally on Friday, I decided that I could either let this health issue consume me and take me under, or I could fight for my health.   I decided to fight.   I quit eating my emotions, and decided that it's time to make a big change in my eating habits.  It's time for me to focus on being healthy.  I am working on cutting out all the processed foods that I can reasonably can.   Not just for myself but for my entire family.   We have a diet that is heavily processed, and now it's time to get rid of that.  So, we are slowly making a change to that.   Right now, though I'm really struggling with it.   I think maybe my body is addicted to all the chemicals, because I'm going through some withdrawal symptoms!  

Motivaton for Monday!

How true is this?   I can't even tell you how many times I've said this!   But, I would never ever think about smashing my phone!

Weekly Weigh In

This week I gained four lbs.  Some of you might be wondering why I am here posting  about a four pound gain on a weight loss blog, but it's because I promised to share the good, the bad, and the ugly.  This definitely qualifies as the ugly! Time of month has arrived and that is part of what is going on with the gain, but I can't pretend to say that I did want I needed to do last week.  I didn't work out once, and and I didn't eat like I should have.    I was depressed this week, and I didn't want to get off the couch!   I think this week, I'm going to take some time and get back outside!  It's supposed to be pretty this week, so  I think I'm going to go back to the park and walk at least one morning, after my little one goes back to school.

This week it's time to get back on track! I'm so close to being down 100's that I can taste it!

This week is going to be a challege!

We've got an ice storm coming here in the south.    So, we will be stuck inside for a coupon days.  My husband will be "stuck at work" and so it will just be me and the little one.   I worry that I'm going to struggle with eating, because right now I feel like I'm starving, even though I shouldn't be hungry.  And, I've felt like that all day.   I'm suspecting that it must be stress, making me hungry!   I just need to make it through!