I've been doing really good these past four months. I've lost 37lbs and then all the sudden when I'm not paying attention wham I fall off track. I stop forcing myself to drink my water, eat breakfast, stay away from soda. I just stopped. It's almost like I sabtaged myself. I'm sure your thinking (or at least hoping) that I am going to ahve some sort of super smart answer for why I did this to myself. I hate to disappoint but I have no clue. If I knew that I most likely would have solved this problem already! I am going to consider it a good thing that I realized that I was sliding off the path before I started gaining it all back. Hopefully, I will be able to reign it all back in before that starts happening. I didn't gain all this weight over night, so there's no way I'm going to lose it over night either.
Sometimes, I feel like this beast (this is what I call my food addiction) is going to win and take complete control of my life. I know that it's an addiction because sometimes food can consume my every waking thought. And, I do mean my every thought. Some mornings I wake up and the first thought on my mind is what kind of high fat, highly processed food can I get right away. I don't think a person that isn't addicted to food thinks like this. I don't think a normal person wakes up just dreaming of the all the sweets they can stuff into their bodies for that day. It's so disgusting to myself. I feel like my body is betraying me.
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