Struggles and set backs!

The holidays are here and I never really formed a plan for dealing with them.   I guess in my mind I could just float right through them.   Well, that plan isn't working out so well.  I'm really struggling.  I'm way off my low gi eating plan.   And, it really stinks.  I know I'm gaining weight.  I've been in a very out of control binge.  The cravings are back and I can't seem to stop myself from giving in to them.  

I've been asking myself where do I wrong the most with the cravings.   And, the answer has to be the grocery store.  I couldn't eat it if I didn't buy it.   I'm not really sure what makes me buy it.  I think just because it's sitting there staring me in the face, so it finds it's way into my cart.   That's not good!  I think I need to start making a list of the things I need, and then sticking to only what is on that list!  Nothing added, nothing extra! 

I also struggle with finding ideas for low GI meals that are quick and easy and don't require much effort!   Once, I make it through these holidays I'm going to focus on finding new recipes for me, that are quick or that can be reheated well.   That's going to be important to helping me stay focused and on track.   Is having the food handy, and ready.   Otherwise, there is always an excuse to not cook it.  

Mentally and emotionally, I'm really in a bad place.  I'm struggling with exhaustion from burning the candle at both ends, and from depression I think.   I'm thinking my depression is hormone related as I think, TOM is nearing any day now.   

Usually, I am very excited about the holidays.  And, this year all I can think is hurry up and be over already!   That is very unlike me.   Normally, I love the feeling of Christmas. 

I did have a victory with fitness this week though.  One day this week I had to skip my walking because I just got caught up in the Christmas shopping and ran out of time.   I felt terrible the entire day.  I was tired, and grouchy, and felt like a huge lump of laziness.   I can't really describe how bad it made me feel.   The next day I made sure that I was back to my walk because I didn't want to feel like that again.   It felt so bad to be back to walk.  I was tired beyond belief after my walk, but I felt great!  I'm looking forward to getting my Christmas present to myself (an elliptical)!   It's going to allow me to change my schedule around some and hopefully take some pressure off.  I think I will still get outside and walk when I have some time to do that.  Because, I really do enjoy being outside.  Even when it's super cold and I'm freezing my butt off out there.  But, it will be nice to be able to get my workout out of the way in the early mornings before I have to start my day with my little one and school and etc.  It will help to free up some of my time.   But, it will also mean that I will have to stick to a much stricter bedtime!  Bedtime is important for me, I have always loved to sleep!

I hope that all of you reading this hasn't lost your motivation or fallen off track like I have!  I know that you can keep on track and keep going!  If you have fallen off track, just come and jump back on track with me!  When can do it!  I know we can!